A new chapter is a little surprise! Because it comes from Alice’s diary! And the first part of this chapter saved my very first concert memory… But I won’t tell you what is real in here, no!
So, enjoy! And wonder! Ha!
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From Alice’s Diary:
1st January 2015
Dear Diary,
Yes, I know. I haven’t been writing here since April. I’m sorry… The life of a high school girl is difficult…
Well, today I would like to describe the most beautiful day of my life. Yes, I mean the concert of Silver Trills. It was the event that turned my life upside down… But it was only a beautiful beginning! Not only did I see my beloved band live, but I also met the love of my life. How strange it is that you can admire someone’s talent and don’t know that you are meant to be until love stands in front of you and looks you straight in the eye…
Maybe I’ll write a continuation of this story later… It depends on how long it will take me to describe the concert with all the details…
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I was going by car with my parents to the club. I was holding the cell phone in my hands and was waiting for a call from my friend Anne. It was supposed to be our first meeting in real life. Funny story! I met her on the Internet when I had to resell the second ticket.
I looked at the screen of my device. It was 6:26 P.M. In just a few minutes, I was going to meet my new friend and have fun, listening to the music of our favourite band. It sounds too beautiful. It sounds like a fairy tale. But it was really happening! I was happy like never before… My life finally stopped being one big, grey, lonely tunnel. I could finally say that it’s okay. In addition, I have been getting this strong feeling for a few days that nothing would ever be the same anymore, that something would change… So, I was fascinated by waiting for a bit of sunshine of joy. I did everything I was supposed to do. All I had left to do was wait for a better time…
Suddenly, my phone rang, and I picked it up. Anne told me she was already there waiting for me. We also described our clothes so there would be no problems with finding each other. And it was a chilly February evening, so we were wearing warm jackets, gloves, scarves, and hats… After this conversation, I hung up.
We finally got to the club. I said goodbye to my parents, who wished me a good time, and I got out of the car, putting a big smile on my lips.
After a while, I called my friend, and we started looking for each other. I told her she would find me by the white beanie with a fluff on the top. And it worked beautifully! Once we found each other, we chatted a bit and decided to start squeezing up the stairs. After the moment of standing, the girl took out her phone.
– Who do you like the most from the Silver Trills? – she asked, looking at her phone screen.
– Me? Hmm… Nobody, really. I like everyone the same – I smiled at her even though she wasn’t looking at me.
– I think Joe is the sweetest. He’s so handsome and so smart and so funny and so strong and… So… So perfect! – she showed me the picture of him on the phone. I just rolled my eyes.
And this is how the subject of our conversation became Joe Hoop. Anne was talking about him all the time and couldn’t stop. By the way, she showed me pictures of this boy. I enjoyed listening to her, but it was a little awkward for me. “Seriously? You too?” – I was thinking all along. I couldn’t understand it. “How can you fall in love with a famous guy? How can you have feelings for someone who doesn’t even know your name? Such a feeling is a constant suffering. You can’t meet your loved one, talk to or anything. Nothing… It doesn’t mean that I don’t like Joe or something. I’m just not like all those blind eyed girls. I will never be one of them. I will never fall in love this way. It can’t happen… But I like him. He is a talented boy with a wonderful voice. He plays in my favourite series and band and… It’s nice like that” – that’s what I found myself thinking before I met him.
We finally made it to the club. A man checked our tickets and let us go further. We walked forward in silence.
There are no words to describe my joy. Maybe I didn’t show it, but I was really happy. Some would say I was too calm for those circumstances… But celebrities are also people! The only difference is the fact that they’re well-known and rich. There are no reasons to go crazy…
We were at the end of the queue for the cloakroom. We took our coats off and started talking about nothing and everything. And this is how it was until we got underneath the stage. We were on the right side from the audience’s point of view. We managed to pave some space remarkably close. It’s good that we could make it, and I guess it just had to be like that. You’ll understand what I mean soon, diary…
After a while, music started to play. At first, I looked uncertainly around the crowd. I saw how everyone felt good there and was just having fun. I thought I’d do the same. A moment later, I let the music take control of me, and I started jumping to the beat.
Then another DJ came on the stage, and Anne told me it was DJ Maximus who always supports the band. Since the very beginning of their existence. I was a fan for half a year, and I wasn’t quite familiar with this new world yet, but today I don’t have any problems with it. But at that moment, I didn’t know who Maximus was… I’m ashamed to admit it, but it’s true…
When the time came for the band to take the stage, I was no longer the girl who used to be afraid of everything. I was braver than ever. I just kept smiling and showing the peace sign from time to time. I was doing it more often than the Rock & Roll sign, and I still don’t know why. I was just doing it without a second thought, like some kind of robot. It probably just had to be this way, either…
Everyone was shouting “Silver Trills, Silver Trills”. I was no exception. Finally, a few minutes later, the band appeared on stage. It was after 8 P.M.
As the words of the song began, I started to sing. I couldn’t stop. I was surprised that I knew their lyrics so well.
I looked across the stage at the band members. I couldn’t believe this was really happening. It was the most beautiful moment of my life!
After a while, my eyes landed on the brunet named Joe. Something hypnotized me… I felt like lightning struck me. I could only stand there and look at him. Suddenly, I thought that this boy is much more handsome in real life than on the screen. My thoughts surprised me. I had never thought of him this way before…
A moment later, I went back to having fun, listening to my beloved music. Time was passing just like those songs, and at one point, I noticed that Joe was looking in my direction. I thought that it was definitely not about me and continued to live in the moment. Then I met his gaze again and ignored it just like before… But it kept happening! Literally the entire show! But I couldn’t believe that I was the one he was staring at… It was impossible for me…
The next time our eyes met, I was just wondering why he was looking this way all the time. He was singing and looking straight at me, and I was standing in the crowd and doing the same thing. When I realized what was happening, I just smiled. He immediately smiled back. This way I made sure… It was me who he chose out of all those people… We had talked earlier, thanks to Laura, but how was I to know that he would recognize me in such circumstances?
After all that, the concert was still continuing. I guess no one noticed our little moments. I didn’t tell anyone about it. I mean Anne. Because I only knew her… I don’t think anyone noticed how Joe was looking at me… It was like there was no one, just me and him…
After the last song, the band left the stage. It was after the encore. My friend and I went to the store. I bought a poster and a bracelet with the title of the album. I still wear it every day. Anne bought a nice hat with the band’s logo on it.
After our little shopping moment, we were just standing there and chatting. And then Anne nudged me. Someone was watching us. I looked up and was a bit shocked. In front of us were the Hoops’ father, Bruce, and the band’s manager… They were talking among themselves, staring at us! Of course, I didn’t know at first what was going on… My friend explained everything to me later.
The next part of the day was spent waiting for autograph signings. Somehow, we were standing in the front row when the band was walking to the place where they were going to give autographs. I didn’t know why, but I couldn’t take my eyes off him as he was walking… Yes, I mean Joe…
The crowd was mad, and the floor was slippery… I lost my balance in the end and landed on the ground… I still remember how every part of my body was hurting… And my poster got torn… I tried to get up and had a lot of trouble with it. Fortunately, people who were nearby helped me. It probably looked comical, but at that moment I felt really bad about it… In addition, the chain from my new grey shoe broke! And to top it all off… Anne and I were also separated.
In the end, the moment came, and I was going to approach the table where the band members were sitting. I took an uncertain step forward. I finally got to them. I put the poster in front of Mike, and he signed it without a word. He didn’t even look at me… Same with the rest, but Joe was the exception… When I stood in front of him, he started staring at my poster for a moment. It looked like he didn’t know what to do! He was thoughtful and wanted to write something in the lower left corner. Unfinished letter “s”. That’s what it looked like to me… He finally gave his signature, but he was doing it for an exceptionally long time. When he was done, his eyes landed on me. It was the most beautiful sight I have ever seen! I’ve never seen such a beautiful, sincere smile… And those words that haunt me still… But they didn’t reach me then…
– Will you stay with me? And thanks for coming – yes, that’s what he said, still smiling at me.
– … – I couldn’t say a word. All I could do was stand there and smile gently… He embarrassed me terribly. And I didn’t know why…
I finally took the poster in my hands and… Left. I know I was stupid not asking him to repeat words he said… I just didn’t hear the first question… I don’t know how it happened, but this is how it was… I still regret it a lot because I broke his heart this way… Now I know it…
Then I asked two people how to get out of there, and then a corridor led me to the room where Anne was already waiting for me. I don’t know why, but I was pissed at my shoe and broken chain! I put the poster and my red purse into her hands. I was pretty occupied trying to fix my stupid shoe…
When I had finished unsuccessfully doing what I was doing, we went outside soon after. I said goodbye to my friend and went to the car, where my parents were waiting.
On the way home, I was looking out the window at my city, thinking about it all. I will never forget this feeling… I can’t describe it… I’ve never felt anything like this before… There was something in the air… Was it magic? Or sparks? Or maybe… Love?
I was wondering all the time then: “Why was Joe looking at me like that? What does it all mean? And why was I acting like that? Why do I feel like everything has changed? Why does it all seem so new? And what will happen next?” … So many questions and no answer… Null…
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That’s how it was. That’s where it all began… My life is no longer the same, nor am I… It seems like just a beautiful fairy tale, but it’s a true story full of love, change, suffering, and this cruel distance… I have never asked for it all. It just came to me. I don’t know what to say… I just fell in love… And I know he’s the one. Joe is the perfect boy that I’ve been looking for. And what amazes me the most is how much in common we have… I knew him before, and I would never have told… It’s so unbelievable and just… I’m a lucky girl!
When it comes to Anne… She’s still a close internet friend of mine, and we met again last summer. Whereas her obsession with Joe has died completely and has moved to Harry… That’s the way it is at this age!
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Oh, I’ve cooled down a bit, so I can continue writing now. I’ve just described the beginning, and a lot has happened since then! All I have to say is as strong as driving fast on a cobbled road with no hands on the handlebars…
A few days after the concert, everything became clear… It’s all thanks to Laura! She was the one who sent me Joe’s number. I wrote him a message… He was so happy that he just started calling me like a madman… I felt terribly flustered and stuff… I didn’t answer a single phone call… I was only sending him messages… Love changed me, but you can’t get rid of shyness so quickly… I found out this way that he didn’t know that we knew each other. He confessed that he liked me before, and during the concert, he just couldn’t take his eyes off me, but he didn’t know it was me. He also told me what he said to me then at the table…
A few days later, I found out that my grandfather had passed away and I was broken-hearted. Despite the tour, Joe flew to Warsaw to meet me again and comfort me. Later, he returned to the city where he was going to play the next show, and I went with my parents to my mother’s hometown for the funeral. Thanks to Joe, I survived the time of mourning. We were talking all the time and were getting to know each other better each day. It turned out that we have a lot in common, and every day I was becoming increasingly convinced that I must have known him in a previous life… It was all so new and familiar at the same time…
In March, I went back to school because the winter break had just ended, and somehow, life had to go on. But changes stayed with me. Nobody knew about me and Joe. And it was good this way, I must admit.
It was my birthday in April, and I was totally blown away by what happened… Joe and Laura brought all their friends to my birthday party, which I didn’t know I was throwing! It was a sweet sixteenth birthday… In addition… Joe promised an extra concert in Poland to have another excuse to see me… How sweet he was… But that’s not all… Just imagine… An elegant room in the hotel, I was sitting at the table, and he suddenly took my hand in his and asked if I would be his girlfriend… He was so solemn about it… Of course, I had to say yes! My dear sweet Joe!
A few days after my birthday, everyone went back to Los Angeles, but Joe stayed in Warsaw. He lived in the hotel almost permanently, so this hotel had to give him a discount for being a regular customer, and we saw each other every day for three weeks. It was the most beautiful and exciting time of my life because I had never been dating before. But at the same time, the atmosphere was starting to get thick because Joe was becoming more and more recognizable for the tour and the release of the album…
In the end, the idyll ended sometime in May… We were walking along the street, and some crazy girl drove into me, and later it turned out that she just wanted to have me on her conscience… I was in a coma for several days, and when I woke up… I understood that this fairy tale would end badly for both of us. I knew Laura still cared for Joe, so I asked her to replace me. Joe loved her once, so I thought he could do it again… But the truth is I was stupid… I thought it was possible to escape from destiny, but that’s a lie! Joe was devastated when he thought I was dead. Yes, I had Laura, and doctors told him that I died from injuries sustained during the accident. Yes, Laura and others flew here as soon as they found out about all of this. It was the turn of May and June.
They returned to the States in early June, and I tried to start all over again. I passed my middle school exams very well, so I started looking for a good high school. I got to the school of my dreams, and I was able to develop my musical and acting passions during the holidays. I dyed my hair, changed my name, and everything that was possible to simply cut off from the past. But there was still something missing in my life… It became so… Empty.
In August, I decided to write to Laura again, and I found out then that Joe didn’t seem well. He gave up on his career… Later, he got a little better, but it only resulted in his return to Warsaw. I don’t know how it all turned out because Laura and Joe never explained it to me… I’ve never asked because it seems to be such a sensitive subject… Well…
At the end of September, we met again… On the street! How changed he was… How miserable he was! I hurt him again, and it broke my heart, I guess as much as it broke his own. And we literally bumped into each other ON THE STREET then. How strange! But this way I know that it’s not a coincidence… We are simply meant for each other…
We started dating again in October. But this time everything was different because Joe didn’t know it was me. It was a bit like going back to our beginnings, but it was our new beginning… He thought I was just like his dead beloved… He told me so! It was also different because Joe was careful. After such a heartbreak, trust is never the same again… You fell in love with someone with all your heart and soul, and then fate separates you both, and it seems that there’s no turning back, that it’s a categorical end… But in our case, it wasn’t like that…
Everything changed when Laura came back. It was fine, soft, and quiet between me and Joe, and she came here, and Joe found out that my death was a lie. But I also know that she didn’t want it to be revealed… It just happened… Laura is our friend, and I know she wishes us well. I trust her completely.
November was quiet in the wrong sense of this word. Joe didn’t want to talk to me or Laura…
But in December, he cooled down, put all affairs in order in his head, and forgave me! It was as sweet as it was at the very beginning… And even better because… Now I know I’m pregnant… We were writing a song together then, and it’s a really strong emotional tune and… It just happened… I know it’s a bad time because I’m so young, I’m going to give birth as a seventeen-year-old girl, but… Some things just can’t be planned, and I vowed to never break his heart again… My good intentions haven’t always worked the way they should, but Joe is really happy now… At least I did one thing right… But he doesn’t know yet that we’re going to have a baby! No one knows yet… Even Laura… But I’ll tell her first. I need some advice on when the best time is to announce such things to a loved one.
Yesterday was New Year’s Eve, and we had a wonderful time with Joe. Now I know that I’m really lucky and I can’t let this happiness slip out of my hands… Never again.
I feel like everything will be finally fine now…
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I must go! Today is my beloved’s birthday and I must make sure that he’s going to have the most beautiful day of his life…
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New chapter looks just like this! Was it very surprising…? Let me know!
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So, that’s all for today. Another one is coming tomorrow! I mean the next blog post…
Love, A.A.
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