The new chapter is here! It gets deep, funny, and tragic sometimes! Oh, and a lot of music is mentioned here!
So, enjoy!
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14th September 2014
Dear Diary,
Yes, I know, I haven’t been writing for a long time again. Laura has no time! I tried to convince Joe to go back to me. And how did it turn out? It was already beautiful, he almost fell for my spell, and we would have some fun, I don’t think I need to explain what I mean, and then suddenly the thought of Alice stood between us… Ugh! As if nothing had happened, he said with a stony face that he’s going back to Warsaw and he just left my house, leaving me completely astonished and emotionally warned up like that. Well, at first, I thought that he must’ve been joking, and he would come back to me soon, and what did he do? Nothing! He doesn’t even answer my calls now! It’s just beginning to piss me off! What is it that keeps him so attracted to her?! She’s “dead” in the end! I will never understand boys! It’s certain!
Well, I’ve relaxed a bit. Now let’s move back to December 2013. It was the time when the filming of the second season of Friends Dreamers was completed, and the EP by Silver Trills was released. Their album came out about a month later. Now listen what happened then…
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It was Friday. It was a typical day on set as always but not quite… We were recording the last episode of the second season! YAY! We didn’t know then that it was the categorical end of our series. Though the plot shows the end of school and our group of friends split up, it doesn’t mean that you can’t always come up with a continuation… Anyways… There was just a song scene left to shoot, and it was called We Are Forever. Joe loved this song, and I didn’t. Yep… It’s normal here… But today I explain it to myself that maybe he felt that he would meet the love of his life soon… I mean Alice… However… As I said, diary, imagine that we are on the set.
– It’s all so complicated but we are forever, baby – Joe just sang the last notes. In the meantime, the director got up from his chair.
– Cut! We have it! People! It’s the end of the season! That’s a wrap! – the guy grabbed his head. Well, it went by quickly. Despite Joe breaking his leg, we made it until December, just before Christmas, almost as planned… Almost, I’ll repeat…
– Yes, yes, we know! – we shouted like a choir, then we did a group hug. How I love these crazy people! They’re like a second family to me.
We stopped hugging and the director just happened to stand next to us.
– So what, children? We’re having a little party tomorrow, huh? And one more thing. We don’t know yet if the third season is happening. We must wait.
– Yeah! There will be a party all the way! – Joe was so happy that he just started to dance. After a while, Brian joined him. Wow, it was so comical…
– But will there be a third season? – Sindy asked.
– Let’s hope so. We must wait for the producer’s decision. Future belongs to him.
– I can’t imagine that it could be the end… – I said.
Sindy and I looked at each other. Just at the same time boys stopped fooling around and stood next to us.
– Will this party be here? And what time? – Joe asked.
– Yes, here at the studio at four pm – the director said.
– Why so late? – Brian’s words.
– We must clean everything up. Okay, I’m not extending this conversation. You’re free, children – he patted Joe and Brian on the back and walked away.
– So, what are we doing now, girls? – asked the black-haired boy.
– Emm? I’m not a girl – the brunet was outraged.
– You know… I don’t know. I didn’t check.
The boy gave him a murderer’s look and his phone rang at that very moment.
– I’ll be back in a minute. I see that Tay wants to tell me something important.
He left, and after a while he came back jumping gleefully. Literally…
– Why are you acting like a girl after shopping? – Brian asked.
The brunet ignored him and said:
– I’ve just learned about the official release date of the Untouchable EP. It’s happening in two weeks and then my family is throwing a party at our place. I invite all of you.
– Wow! Congratulations, my dear.
I fell into his arms, and he seemed even happier, if that was even possible…
And by the way… The album was released… in January 2014! The release of the EP just before Christmas was a clever idea because both the EP and the LP were selling well. The Silver Trills world tour started in February, and you already know the rest, diary… I mean the story with Alice…
By the way, let me put the tracklist of the EP here: Untouchable, Kisses, Stay In My Head, Madly Falling In Love. As you can see, diary, these are already well-known songs to you. The album is consisted of these four songs, five other that were already mentioned in this diary (Remember, Bad Dream, Only You, Waves, Revolution), and four brand new songs: Just Be My Angel, Real Dream, Hold Me Tight, Beautiful Love Song. And now let’s come back to the scene described here…
When we stopped hugging, Joe got tons of congratulations from our friends. After that, we were chatting for a while, and everyone went to their dressing rooms to change.
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“Ah. I’ll be back here again in a few months. I guess…” – I thought. Today I know that I never went back there but nevermind…
I took one last look around my red wardrobe and left. Before leaving the studio, I met my beloved bunch of people and after a while, we started talking about plans for the evening:
– Maybe I’ll ask again… Shall we go somewhere? – Brian asked this question.
– How about pizza? – I suggested.
– I like this idea. And you, Joe? – Sindy said.
– Alright. What time?
– Maybe nine pm? – I asked.
Everyone agreed, and after some time, we started discussing another subject. Fifteen minutes later we reached our homes. I decided to go to my sister’s room and chat with her for a while. It was late so she was already home. I was telling her about the show and next day’s party, and she was saying things about Mike like “How handsome he is!”, blah, blah…
After talking to Samantha, I started thinking about what to wear for the party. In the end, I chose a green floral dress with a black belt and white high heels. Why not? It’s nice to be fancy sometimes!
When the clothes were lying and waiting for new adventures, it turned out that 7 pm. was just around the corner, so I got ready to go out and after that, I was with my friends again. There was a pizzeria in our neighbourhood, so after a brief time we already grabbed a table in the premises. And then the waiter came over. I must admit that blond was even my type. And such a handsome man he was… Hazel eyes… God, how I love nuts… “Stop, Laura! You have a boyfriend!” – I had to remind myself repeatedly as I was looking at him.
– Okay. What kind of pizza do we order? I’m craving a thick-crust Hawaiian one – Joe said.
– Sure. I haven’t eaten this kind in a long time – after saying it, Sindy drowned in her thoughts for a moment.
– How about you, Laura? Everything’s fine for me – Brian said it directly to me.
I agreed, but I wasn’t very awake. I kept staring at that waiter. He was so sweet. No… Bad Laura, bad!
Unfortunately, he noticed my intrusive gaze, which wasn’t difficult at all, and said:
– Does Ms Beautiful want a lava cake on the house?
– Sure. Thank you – I smiled at him, and he smiled back.
– Ms Beautiful has a boyfriend, so back off – the nervous brunet said.
– Alright, alright. I’m going – he said, looking at him with disgust.
When the boy had gone away, I don’t know why, I called after him:
– Remember about that cake!
He turned around and blinked at me. I smiled and looked at Joe who was dying of envy. “Well, you kinda killed him kindly, Laura…” – I thought. The brunet was literally red with anger. And it’s no mean feat because his complexion is rather pale…
I’m not surprised at all… But I don’t understand one thing… What got into this empty head of mine that I was flirting with this unusual hottie?! No… I’m doing it again… Oh, Laura. You’re starting to lose your pretty little mind…
But seriously… I wonder today if such an innocent flirting is really that bad when you already have someone. I love Joe with all my heart and today I know that I did something bad because I hurt him… But… Well… I guess I was simply born this way, it’s easy for me to connect with men… But it doesn’t mean anything to me anyway… Only Joe truly matters to me, but I’ll leave that to you to think through, dear diary…
– Could you kindly tell me what it was?
Joe finally spoke up. Yep… And what was I supposed to tell him?!
– Did I tell you that this shirt matches your hair?
I said it with a smile tied to my face, then brushed a strand of hair out of his bangs that had fallen over his eye. “I beg you, buy it, and don’t be angry anymore!” – I thought frantically.
– You know what, Laura? I think we shouldn’t be together anymore.
He didn’t even let me say a word because he got up and just walked out. Yep. It couldn’t be better… Brian and Sindy were looking at me stunned, and I just wanted to sink into the ground.
Shortly after all this, the same waiter came to our table with our order. Hawaiian pizza. Joe’s favourite. What did I do…
– Your cookie. I see your boyfriend has vanished. At least he won’t bother us anymore – he took his seat and blinked at me.
After thinking for a moment, I replied:
– Do you flirt with every client like that here? Or not… I don’t want to know because I really don’t care… And do you know what? Walk away, I’ve already got enough problems.
– Ah, it could be so nice…
He finally left and I took a deep breath of relief. But I felt like I lost my beloved Joe. He actually broke up with me then… Oh… Well, so maybe it was my fault that he finally broke up with me in February… For good… Okay, I won’t get ahead of the facts now… You’ll see what happened after all of this very soon, dear diary.
– So what? Let’s eat! – the black-haired boy said.
– Brian! How can you think about food in such a situation?! – Sindy tried to discipline him.
– No. He’s right. I don’t think when I’m hungry.
After saying it, I took a slice of pizza and bit it.
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The next day there was a party at the studio. I literally cried all evening, night, and the next morning. By noon it was better, so I didn’t have too tragically swollen eyes at the party. “I’m already afraid of meeting Joe… Yeah. We haven’t spoken since yesterday… I understand him perfectly. What have a little wise me have done…” – such thoughts were interrupted by Sindy’s arrival at my house.
– Oh, Laura! Don’t feel sorry for yourself anymore, just start preparing for the party!
She sat next to me on the bed, and I hugged her without a word. After a while, her shoulder was wet from my salty tears. I finally managed to whisper sobbing in her ear:
– How could I hurt him like that? In front of his eyes! It will never be the same again because of my stupidity.
After these words, a new stream of tears came to my eyes. Yep, I still cried bitterly in her arms. Sometimes it happens that someone’s presence or words of comfort open a fresh wound…
After about ten minutes I finally calmed down a bit and we unglued ourselves from each other.
– Boys come and go, and I, your faithful friend, will always stand by you. Don’t cry anymore, just get ready and you’ll see what today brings. Maybe he has already forgotten?
– You’re right. I shouldn’t feel sorry for myself, just fight a little more for our relationship… Thanks. I don’t know what I would do without you.
I hugged her again. That’s what a loyal friend means!
We finally stopped hugging and I started getting ready. Half an hour later I looked like a princess with a little help from Sindy. I mean she made my make-up. Nobody knows how to do it like her!
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I was in the studio and the party was in full swing. Music was playing in the background, a lot of people without whom the series wouldn’t exist were all around and a huge table with delicious snacks and drinks was there too. Everything was good and great but one person was missing. Joe… I’ve been wandering around trying to find him. After about ten minutes of this stupid walk, I finally found my boyfriend. I still thought of him like that after all. He was having a conversation with Brian who was leaning against the wall. I took a deep breath, painted a fake smile on my face, and approached them. I really wanted to cry in a corner somewhere, but no! I had to be strong and fight for this love!
– Hey, Joe. Can we talk? – I asked.
The boy turned around and what did I see? He had an indifferent expression on his face… Just the best start I could dream of… Can you feel the sarcasm, diary? At the same time, Brian went away so as not to disturb us, but I could still see him behind Joe’s back… He’s a good guy, though. And his funny gestures… I must admit that he gave me courage this way.
– You want to talk? Do you know it’s gonna be hard because we don’t have anything to talk about?
As he was saying these words, I felt how something inside of me was dying. My heart fell into the abyss and shattered into millions of pieces. Just like a glass… Clouds appeared above me and heavy rain began to fall. It felt like lightning electrocuted that shattered glassy heart of mine. The only thing missing in this landscape was ghosts wandering in shadows, the dead rising from their graves with bloody fangs, howling wolves, hooting owls, and maybe… No… I’m exaggerating… It’s a wrong fairy tale!
– Joe… I’m… I’m so sorry…
Suddenly I started stuttering. All the time I was looking into his beautiful blue eyes full of sadness and… Anger?… It hurt me… Very much… He made me weak and innocent like a deer… At least that’s how I felt then…
– Listen. You stabbed me straight in the heart. One sorry is not enough to heal the wound. I can’t even look at you.
I thought I was about to die. His words pierced me to the core. I could only stare at him for a moment with my mouth wide open…
– Joe… What can I do to make you feel better?
– There’s nothing you can do.
At that very moment, Olivia grew up next to us. This girl played with us in the series, and I even quite liked her… Such a slim, red-haired, tall person at our age. Her role was quite important because she was one of the greatest supporting characters. There was such an episode where Justin had a girlfriend and that’s her. And yes, besides, she went to the same school as the main characters, so they were meeting her quite often.
– Oh. There you are, Joe! I’ve been looking for you everywhere!
– What? Why? Something happened? – he showed interest.
– The director wants to talk to you.
I still don’t know what it was about, but it was probably related to the soundtrack. Filming was over but Joe still had to go to the recording studio and record one last song. Only a pre-recorded snippet of this track was used for the series, and now the full version was needed as the entire soundtrack came out later this year. I mean literally this year. Sometime in the spring, if I remember correctly… It exists, indeed!
– Oh, okay. I’m going to him now. And you look really nice today…
The girl blushed, and something stung me… “Joe! What are you doing?!” – flashed through my mind.
– Oh. Thanks. You look very handsome today too.
The brunet also blushed and began to grin from ear to ear. I wanted to cry. Here and now…
– Thanks. Okay, I’m going now.
He gave me a look full of horror and just disappeared from my sight. We were left alone.
– So, how’s life, Laura? – she asked after a moment.
I smiled slightly and replied:
– Not bad but… You know… I must go home earlier tonight. I’ve got a headache. When you find Sindy, tell her that I went home, okay?
– Sure. Oh, I see I’m Hermes today. Well, what can I do? You only live once… Get better soon then, and hopefully see you soon.
– Thanks. And bye.
So, I headed out of the studio. I promised myself that I wouldn’t cry outside my four walls, but I involuntarily cried as soon as I crossed the threshold of the building. It was already dark, so no one could see. I wiped my tears before the taxi came and took me home alone. I couldn’t cry anymore, but my head was really hurting. My mom always says it’s because of stress. Well, I had a good reason then… I messed everything up…
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This is what the party looked like. Yeah, I know, sometimes it’s better, sometimes it’s worse but what can you do? Nothing. You just must keep going forward and everything will work out in the end. That’s just life and sometimes things just suddenly fall apart. But you must be able to see the ray of hope and go towards it. Nothing lasts forever. Someday present problems will become just a bad memory, something that will strengthen you…
P.S. “Even when it hurts, it can still be good”.
You’re probably asking yourself “Why?” right now. Well… Nothing’s easier. If you’re hurting, it means it’s something real, it’s important to you. Tears are proof that you really care about something. Don’t be afraid to show it. Just follow your heart and don’t be afraid to fall. It makes you stronger…
Joe escaped again, what now? I must keep fighting… We’re not giving up, Laura, no!
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The chapter ends here! I hope you like it.
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