After two weeks, I’m coming back with the new chapter of my story. It’s a funny one, I’m telling you!

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2^nd June 2014

Dear Diary,

I think that some people and the world have gone crazy… Why do I think so? Because Alice has gone mad! Maybe step by step…

Tomorrow, the girl will be released from the hospital because she’s feeling much better, but Joe must think that she will die tomorrow. Cool, right?

I’m supposed to play a stupid scene with her and the doctors in front of Joe, that she’s dying! Why? “Because that’s what’s best for all of us. For Joe… I was a problem for him from the beginning. I must disappear. He can only be happy with you.” She really told me so! Total bullshit, even though it’s true and I still have feelings for him! Yup, you’re seeing right, diary!…

If he finds out that his beloved is “dead”, he will break down! He will be a wreck of a human! If he finds out we lied, who knows what he’ll do! A real hell on Earth! This way it’s bad, another way it’s even worse! But the worst part is that I have no choice! I must do it. I must help her “fix our lives and love”. I think I’m about to lose my mind… Yup, me too! Along with Alice! I live in a madhouse called Earth!

Let’s move to the rest of the memories now… It may be difficult after such an introduction, but I think it’s worth grabbing the thread of the earlier flashback and taking the story a bit further…

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It’s been a month since all those recent events. We finished shooting the show, and Joe went across the country to record the movie. We all stayed in Los Angeles and waited for his return on this forced winter/spring vacation. I haven’t talked with him all this time…

“Maybe he’s right?” – I’ve been thinking for these two months. We’re too different… I love classical rock, and he loves pop-rock. I like volleyball, and he likes water sports and cycling. Personally, I don’t like water and I can’t ride a bike (you’re seeing well, diary; I’m saying it again today, I know…). I dream about being an actress for a living, and he wants to be a musician first. I’m calm and always trying to behave, although sometimes I don’t think when I talk, and he’s a little crazy, he likes adventures, and when there’s a lot going on… We are totally different, and we don’t have much to talk about, to be honest. But somehow, it’s been going alright so far…

So yep… Eventually, our plans were cancelled, and Joe was there in Hawaii on his own for two months…

Ah! It’s been so long, and we didn’t talk at all! I know I’m repeating it again, but I had to say it one more time! You see a person every day, and then suddenly the end of any contact comes… It couldn’t be better, huh!

Nothing special happened during this vacation. I was partying a bit with girls, it was my seventeenth birthday in February, so well, it was time to start going to parties. Someday you must! Especially in such a profession… Acting and dancing are twin sisters… And the teenage age… But to be clear… I didn’t start trying alcohol until I turned eighteen! I am Laura Angel, and a role model! Yep! You may sense sarcasm here, but I’m serious, I swear!

In mid-April, it was time to shoot the second season of our series. Joe only had the weekend to rest a bit, if I remember it well. No wonder he caught a cold as soon as he got back. Little sleep, a lot of work… I felt deeply sorry for him, but somehow, he came back to full strength already in the middle of the filming of the first episode. I remember we still didn’t talk, and he just used every moment to rest. I really understood it, but I also missed him a lot! He was so close and far at the same time! But on the other hand… We also had a few little moments on the set and behind the scenes… I won’t reveal more, you will see soon anyway…

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My thoughts were interrupted by Cher Lloyd’s voice. It was Sindy calling. What was I thinking about then, sitting at home in the morning before returning to the set? I don’t remember exactly, but definitely about us… I mean about me and Joe… Ah, yes! I’ve just recalled myself! That we are quite different…

– Hi. Are you planning to come to the set? We’re all here. Except you.

– What? What are you talking about? And of course, I will come.

– Ah. Just look at the watch – I did as my friend recommended.

– What?! 6:15?! Holy mother, I’m on my way!

– We’ll wait. We have time – she said, amused.

I hung up and ran out of the room. I just sat down to think for a moment. Yep… How good I was ready to go already!

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When I got there, the first person I met was Joe. “Well, just great!” – I thought. Not only we hadn’t seen each other for so long, but he also had to stand in my way when I was already late on my first day at work… After the holiday, of course.

– Hi, Lau. Can we talk?

– We have nothing to talk about.

I tried to walk past him, but he grabbed my hand.

– Laura. I’m begging you. Let’s talk.

– Why? Didn’t you get enough of my tears?

I broke free from his grip and ran to my dressing room, struggling to stop tears running from my eyes. I missed him so much that it just hurt! But I also remember how we rushed the last time we saw each other… And the sick idea of ​​keeping it all a secret… It all came crashing down on me the second I saw him again…

After entering the room, I sat on the floor and let the tears fall… “Why do I care so much about him?!” –  I could be only asking myself. Well, that was our first real fight…

Suddenly, I heard a knock. I quickly wiped my tears off, got up, and opened the door. Joe was on the other side…

–  What? Have you mistaken your wardrobe with mine?

–  I… I just walk to talk…

I finally let him in because I started to feel sick of it. He was asking for the third time in the end…

– You misunderstood me then.

– Something else?

– I’m afraid that if we get together, something will go wrong, and I will lose you then. That’s all. I’m simply scared because I care too much about you – he repeated the same story.

– Wow. I’m so touched – I replied, feeling a bit annoyed.

– I’m so sorry – he continued, trying to sweet-talk me.

– Are you done? – I was still annoyed.

–  Yes…

He was about to turn around and leave, but I eventually grabbed his hand. “Stop! Laura! What are you doing?!” – I reproved myself in my mind. He looked at me with hope in his eyes. In the end, I heard my very surprising voice saying:

– Hug me.

– You’re not angry anymore?

– Just hug me.

The boy fulfilled my wish. I felt better right away! When we stopped hugging, Joe asked:

– Are we good? Like old days?

– Has anything ever changed? – I asked with a laugh.

– And that’s why I like you.

– Now let me change.

Joe agreed and left, and I quickly dressed up in my character’s outfit. It was extremely airy, delicate, white, and simply angelic… I don’t know how many dresses I fell in love with already… Have I ever mentioned that I love the style of my heroine?

Oh, and yep… We made up.

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Ten minutes later, I was on set. I was the one who made the director the most pleased to see. It was already seven in the morning. Yep. Queen’s kind of delay…

– Laura! You’re finally here! What happened that you just showed up here and not earlier?

–  Sorry for being late. It won’t happen again, I promise! I’ve been a bit distracted lately. I know it’s a bad excuse, but it’s true…

I looked at Joe, who just smiled at me in return.

– Well, never mind… Kids! Are you ready? Let’s go! Lights! And… Action!

The director went to his chair, and the first slap of the new season fell…

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By the beginning of May, almost the entire episode was finished. The next day it was supposed to be done…

It’s probably a suitable time to slow down and briefly tell you what the second season was supposed to be about. I’ve written about this before, so I’ll just mention the most important points.

It’s the last year of high school for four friends, and their dreams are coming true beautifully. Alice is waiting for the premiere of the film and she’s getting ready to star in the second one. Justin is forming a band, and they’re releasing an album. The success is happening to be so huge that they’re planning to go on a world tour after graduation. Betty’s continuing to act in even more brilliant plays and David’s selling his first script, and he’s already thinking about writing the second one. Dreams are coming true, but unfortunately, this is the end of the friendship for these four. Everyone goes their own way.

That’s the story. We actually finished it in November 2013, but let’s not get too far into the future… It’s quite complicated! I will explain it later…

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It was Sunday, 5:45 P.M., and everyone was at their houses. There was only one working day left to finish the first episode, as I mentioned before. I decided to go to Sindy’s because I was terribly bored at home.

I knocked on the front door of the blonde’s house and entered. Did I mention that she lived there alone…?

–  Hi, Sindy. Do you have any plans for the evening? – I sat next to her on the couch.

– Brian is coming at six o’clock, and we’re going to bake hazelnut cookies. Maybe you’ll join?

– You know… I’d love to!

She asked me to help her in preparing the ingredients, and I gladly agreed to. I went with the girl to the small kitchen, and we started to get the things out that were needed to make cookies. When we were done, Brian came into the room.

– What’s going on here?

Sindy explained to him how things were going, and we got to baking. In the meantime, the black-haired boy poured flour on my hand. As if by accident…

– Hey! My hand is not a bowl!

– Seriously? I didn’t know that.

I took a pinch of flour and poured it on his hand as well.

– So, this is how you want to play? – he said, raising one eyebrow.

He took a handful of powder and threw it in my face.

– Well, I think you’re not doing right! – I shouted at him.

I did the same as he did. I mean, throwing flour at him.

– Can you both stop?! – Sindy couldn’t take it anymore. She’s been quiet the whole time, if you haven’t noticed, diary.

We both threw flour at her at the same time. Her expression was priceless! We all burst out laughing, and Joe ran into the room. How did he know where to come and when?! That is the question! Brian must have mentioned something to him earlier…

– How can that be?! – the words of the disappointed brunet. – Such a fun without me?!

He quickly dipped his hands in the powder and threw it at Sindy and Brian. He took the rest of the package in his hands and poured it over my head.

– I will strangle you in cold blood! – I yelled at him in response to this extremely generous gesture. He looked at me with fear in his eyes and then started laughing aloud. Yep… A moment later, we all started laughing too.

Do you want to go crazy? Your friends are enough!

It took a while, but we finally stopped laughing, and Sindy started the conversation on a new, extremely comforting topic. Yep…

– How am I supposed to clean the kitchen now?

In fact, flour was everywhere! Even on the chandelier… “How the hell could it happen?!” – I was still wondering the next day. I have no idea even today… Strange things…

– Maybe aliens will help you? – Brian’s words.

After this statement, he started waving his arms weirdly and making silly faces. Yep…

– No? We will help you! – I pointed at myself, the black-haired boy, and Joe.

– Ugh! Aliens would do better!

– What? They don’t exist! – I had to intervene.

– Excuse me?! – Joe was a bit surprised.

– Do not listen to her. She’s lying.

Brian whispered those words into the brunet’s ear loud enough for me to hear. I could only roll my eyes… I have no words of comment even today…

After this scene, Sindy decided to turn the CD on that contained music from the first season of the series. It had just come out. Thanks to this, the cleaning went smoothly, and the kitchen was shining when we left. But the fact is, we had fun like this until it got late.

In the end, it got so tragically late that we decided to return to our homes at once. The next day we had work to do, so it wasn’t a joke!

When I got home, I did what I had to do to get ready for bed. When it comes to me… In fact, there was flour everywhere! But despite everything, after thirty minutes I was sleeping soundly… Nothing will help when you fall off your feet from tiredness…

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When I woke up the next morning, the first thing that I did was taking my phone in my hands. Don’t judge me! I saw 4:21 A.M. on the screen. “Cool! If I must be on the set at 5:30 A.M. and we always start shooting at 6 A.M., then I still have plenty of time!” – I thought.

Oh! I got a text from Sindy! I went into the conversation, and what did I see? About two hundred times the word “JOE” repeated. “Are you kidding me?!” – I thought, but it wasn’t funny to me at all… I quickly called her.

– Hey, Sindy. Why did you write me his name two hundred times?

– What? Me? I’m still asleep, so how could I text you anything? You got something wrong.

– I know what I saw!

– I didn’t write you anything.

– If it’s not you, then what’s that supposed to mean?! My phone and I are going crazy, or what?!

– It looks like that. Let me sleep – she yawned into the phone.

– Okay. Goodnight.

– Goodnight – she yawned into the phone again.

I hung up. What a suspicious situation! After thinking about it for a while, I decided to get ready to leave. In the meantime, I realized that she was joking… Very convincingly… She had to get up already to make it to the set, just like me!

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It was 5:30 A.M. when I got there. The first person I noticed was Joe. I was staring at him for a bit, and it ended with bumping into a hanger and falling right with it. Long live the resourcefulness!

The boy noticed this and ran over.

– Wow! Is everything OK?! – he helped me up and lifted the rack.

– Yes, absolutely yes – I looked at our touching hands with a smile. He noticed it, released me at once,and blushed.

Well, when it comes to me… I saw him through rose-coloured heart-shaped glasses! And those butterflies! If you know what I mean, diary… It was just a moment, but how fondly I remember it now, wow…

– Maybe I’ll get ready to shoot – I said.

– Great idea! I’ll go too.

I smiled and went to my dressing room. When I was walking, I felt the brunet’s eyes on me.

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We calmly recorded the episode to the end, and everyone went back to their dressing rooms. I was the last one to arrive at mine. I was about to enter the room when I suddenly heard a fragment of Brian’s speech from Joe’s room, and there was my name in it. I decided to overhear what it was about. I know it’s not nice! But you couldn’t just change me back then, huh!

I walked over to the door and put my ear to it. Not quite literally, but you probably know what I mean…

– So, how do you deal with your feelings for Laura?

“Uuu lalala!! What an interesting beginning!” – I thought, blushing and smiling.

– You know… I’m trying to forget, but it’s just impossible! The mere mention of her name freezes me in space-time…

I got a little sad… But well… Joe is completely in love! YEAH!

– Hello! Joe! Wake up!

Brian’s desperate tone of voice was overwhelming! I still laugh about it even today…

– What? What are you talking to me about?

– Dude! It’s worse than I thought!

Okay! It got too sweet for me! I decided to go to my room and change in the end. Despite my will and good intentions, I couldn’t focus on anything and in the end, I dropped everything and started dancing around the room. Life is beautiful, and love is impossible! And weightless!

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And these are things that happened! I like memories… So, in the future entry, I’m going to tell you about such a scene we shot for the show and how it turned out. It was nice. This is probably my favourite memory!

P.S. “Sometimes I’m falling down, but I’m strong enough to stand up”.

Words said by you know who. I still can’t believe what she came up with! What’s next for all of us?! After all, Joe will break down completely! Ugh! I don’t want to think about it! And tomorrow is the day! Well, great! You can only wish me luck!

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Here it is. I hope you like it.

Let me remind you of the possibility of reading my book in a physical form or e-book. And there is a special novel-inspired collection, too, yes.

I’ll be back soon.

Love, A.A.